So its Thanksgiving in South Texas. Amazingly enough the temperature is a staggering 56 degrees after being in the 90s all week. For once its NOT sunny and for that I thankful. It does indeed feel like a Thanksgiving Day miracle, because it actually feels a little bit like the Holiday Season. Its incredibly difficult to get into the spirit when its hot, sweaty and sunny everyday. But you step into Lowe's and there is Christmas music playing, Christmas trees displayed everywhere with all the trimmings and I'm reminded that is INDEED that time of year. The time of year I adore and look forward to for the rest of the year. Its insane. Its going to be strange to jam to Christmas music while wearing shorts and a t-shirt.
It all makes me that much more excited to go home for Christmas. The 20th-31st. I can hardly wait. It's going to be cold (and hopefully snowy!). I will get to see my entire family and all of my friends (hopefully!!). I won't get to see Alan that much, but he's the one I will come back here with...so I will survive. I am looking forward to sledding, watching The Santa Clause movies, eating cranberry delicious pie, looking at the Christmas tree, listening to Mannheim Steamroller, laughing, going on a reunion bar crawl, seeing the house decorated, being woken up by Jacob on Christmas morning and so much more. It will be weird for Bethany not to be there, but its hard for her to travel being pregnant and all. Everything is different, but everything is the same.
I get to talk to my family fairly often enough. Its hard to talk to them though because it reminds me of how far away I am and then I get incredibly homesick. I'm not sure that feeling will ever go away. I miss them terribly, but I avoid thinking about it and its worked out for me so far. We keep our conversations to the mundane details of everyday life, and it works. I like hearing about it and it keeps us away from thinking about how far apart we are. I know they miss me, and that its hard for them to not have their girls around...especially today. I am heartbroken that I am missing Jacobs 7th birthday. He's so big! I can't believe he is going to be 7 years old. I remember being 7, it was big stuff. He is in first grade and I hate missing so much. I talk to him on the phone about once a week, which i am lucky i get him to talk to me at all since being 7 he would rather be playing video games then talking to his boring older sister on the phone...no matter how close of a relationship we have. I know he misses me terribly, he asks me often when I'm coming home. I can literally feel my heart break when he asks me that. I don't know that I will ever be able to love anyone as much as I love my little brother.
Bethany is doing well. She is in VA saving babies from firey cars. She is due in February and is anxious I'm sure.
Alan and I are doing well. I'm thankful to have him in my life and he keeps me grounded. He always brings me down right when I'm about to fly off the handle for whatever crazy reason. We have lots of fun together and our relationship is growing. We have finally agreed on an anniversary. January 19th will be our one year anniversary. Hard to believe it, but our relationship has always been complex. We don't get to spend as much time together as we would like, with our jobs, but the time we do spend together is always enjoyable. I could go on and on, but its rather sickening.
I miss everyone, especially with the Holidays. I better see most of ya'll in December or I'm going to be PISSED. :)
Have a Merry Thanksgiving